I love this girl with EVERYTHING in me, I don’t know what’s going on. All these STUPID little fights! D:< It’s ruining us. I don’t wanna lose her, but every time we’re together lately it’s just been fighting. Everything is fine for a little while, but them we just argue, and when it’s over the stupidest things it blows up like it’s something horrible.I just wanna stop it, and it KILLS me when she won’t stop because when it really and honestly comes down to I love this girl with ALL OF MY HEART. I can’t emphasize that enough! We have so much to look forward to. Prom, MDW, graduation I don’t wanna miss out on those things, especially with out the girl I pretty much wanted since the moment I laid eyes on. She’s everything I could ever want and more. She’s so silly and goofy, I love it! She’s gorgeous! Know what she wants to be, moving forward in it, and doing amazing in. We’ve had so many great memories together, I’ve laughed the hardest in my life with this girl. I remember one time we went to the park by her house and had our own little picnic, and the only food we brought what a barrel of cheese balls and we were just sitting there trying to throw them into each other’s mouths. I love that she can just be her self around. I love they way she makes her cute little voices and how she calls me Young Yad. She can be the WEIRDEST sometimes, but I love it. xD I loved spending ever Holiday with her. They were all great! Easter, Halloween, Christmas,Valentine’s Day, Thanksgiving, And kissing her on New Year’s was so special, I never kissed anyone on New Year’s and for it to be with a person who means so much to me like her, it was perfect. This girl is honestly the only one I want, out of every girl in the world there is not one that would ever compete with her. I love her so much. I love her family everyone is nice and they always are making me laugh. I wanna watch this girl walk down the isle toward me one day, in her long white dress, looking SO beautiful, I wanna read my vow’s to her. I wanna be holding her hand at 80. I hope things get better, she’s my soul mate. 

I feel so alone right now, I don’t have anyone. The ONE and only person that I can actually say that I truly love with everything I have to offer wants absolutely nothing to do with me. Without her I AM lost, I never even think about what it’s gonna be like to live without her in my life, we have the best times together. Sometimes things just get too carried away. That’s why I can never leave when we have these fights. I love her with every ounce of me and whatever I say that is hurtful I really, and honestly do not mean, I know that it hurts her, and it KILLS me and I wish I could go back in time and not say that. I love her so much and tomorrow will be our 13 month anniversary. I just her here with me, I feel like I’m gonna go insane. She is my rock and the only person who knows me the most. I hate seeing her upset, especially when it’s because of me. I know I say dumb things and I won’t anymore. I’ll think before I talk because you and I both are sick of these fight, and I do not want to lose you ever. I wanna be holding your hand at 80 and looking back on all of the good time that we shared. I love you baby, and I’m Sorry. 

I love you.

<3